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actually, i do not understand what the feeling i feel right now.. pain, sorrow, desperate always disturb my mind.. but i also can't hide this felicity.. i don't know why i feel like that.. when i looking the past, i just can't seem 'why'.. when i try to looking forward, i just don't what excatly gonna happen to me.. it means too complex for me.. hmmmm,,.. if i could ask 'why', i wanna ask that question many times .. unfortunately.... i can't do that.. even i try to speak out loud why, why, and why,, i won't get anything.. the best thing i can do right now is WAITING.. yups.. waiting for the BEST time for me to get the ANSWER.. cause i know, power, spirit and strength will not come for they who always 'ask'.. but it'll come for they who are waiting without any 'objection'.. just like the song title --the best is yet to come--

"berapa lama lagi kamu menyakitkan hatiku dan meremukkan aku dengan perkataan? sekarang telah sepuluh kali kamu menghina aku,.... Sesungguhnya, aku berteriak: Kelaliman!, tetapi tidak ada yang menjawab. Aku berseru minta tolong, tetapi tidak ada keadilan. Kaum kerabatku menghindar, dan kawan-kawanku melupakan aku. menganggap aku orang yang tidak dikenal, aku dipandang mereka orang asing. Semua teman karibku merasa muak terhadap aku; dan mereka yang kukasihi, berbalik melawan aku. Ah, kiranya perkataanku ditulis, dicatat dalam kitab, Tetapi aku tahu: Penebusku hidup, dan akhirnya Ia akan bangkit di atas debu Hati sanubariku merana karena rindu.